Leave It Unsaid
Leave it unsaid.
That’s the line I’ve been pep-talking myself with lately.
I casually told him I would text him when I arrived home, to check in and to see how things were going. I never did. I still haven’t. And maybe that was a total douche thing to do, and I’m a tool for not ever texting him back or reaching out. But I know myself, I know my heart, and I know how I am. As selfish as it might sound, I was just trying to save myself from puffy red eyes, a few more tears, and to spare myself from a little more heartbreak.
Dream Dreams
I woke up this morning in a hotel room, next to a pool, with a sunrise, on an island, overlooking the ocean in Indonesia. I have been traveling on these islands for about a week and a half now, and while it has been rather enjoyable soaking up some serious Vitamin D and sitting in nicely blue-tiled pools until my body looks like a giant prune, I can’t help but ignore the thoughts that have been running through this little brain of mine. I wasn’t planning on writing anything during this trip. Instead, I made plenty of notes in my iPhone of topics and experiences I was going to expand on when I was back home recovering from jetlag.
Zac + Myra: Anniversary
Myra contacted me a couple months ago, and told me she wanted to do a surprise photo shoot with Zac for their 5th anniversary. Duh, cute. She said she wasn’t really great at surprises, but if you ask me, I think she was pretty good at keeping secrets and making this happen.
Light Chasing with Leo
Leo told me he wanted some portrait photos, except he didn’t specify where when I asked him about the location. He wanted to do the spontaneity thing. You know, hop in a car and just end up somewhere, which I am totally down for.
Grammer + Grammy’s
The not so fun fact about the music industry: Grammy’s weekend is everything hectic. The more fun fact:
70s Style with Addi and Kate
There were acai bowls. There was discussion about Mariah Carey’s little mishap performance during Dick Clark’s New Years Eve Countdown. And there was Downtown Redondo Beach. These girls wanted to do a 70s inspired look, and that’s what we did.
Build your life on hope
“From that initial outpouring of emotions and disbelief came the concept of establishing a permanent public memorial […] to deliver a message of hope for many generations to come.”
It was April 20, 1999, and what began as a normal day didn’t end up normal at all. It left people in shock, with countless questions, and a dwindling fear. I was merely in grade school when it happened, so I couldn’t remember much of the details from that day. I couldn’t perfectly recall how the world responded or the whirlwind of emotions I had gone through as a ten year old. Now almost twenty years later, the best I can do, is imagine what it would have been like to be there: to be at that school, to be friends with the victims, and to witness a tragedy that would have blatantly changed my life forever.
Snow Fights to Sunsets: Engagement
Brittney + Drew are originally from Hawaii, and at all costs wanted to avoid the ocean. I don’t blame them because the beaches in Hawaii are gorgeous, and California just can’t compete.
Mornings with Darling
Raise your hand if you’re a morning person! For this Darling Magazine article, we got to go against everything our parents used to tell us not to do, like jumping like maniacs on the bed and drinking hot delicious things AKA coffee in bed.
Pura Vida Bracelets in Palos Verdes
We drove down the coast, we hopped a few fences, and then we ended up on the edge of a cliff overlooking the Pacific Ocean. It was breathtakingly beautiful, and I soaked in every moment of it.
